Heavy Energy: In the Trenches
Posted On March 15, 2019
It’s been a heavy energy week. And today, it’s seemingly reached an all-week high. Or low, depending on how you look at it.
What I do know is I’m not alone in the feeling (and neither are you, if you’ve experienced it as well.). Many of my in-person friends as well as friends on Facebook have mentioned it as well.
Maybe it has something to do with Mercury Retrograde in Pisces? I don’t know. What I do, though, is it’s having a distinct effect on me – mentally and emotionally – as well as so many others.
One thing I’ve learned over the years is this… We need to be gentle with ourselves in the process. It won’t last forever. It never does. It’s just part of a cycle. One of the many we go through over time. In such instances, we need to resist the urge to beat ourselves up or concoct some sort of negative story around it. (“I’m losing my edge.” “I’m getting old.” “I’m weak.”) It’s nothing like that. It’s just a cycle.
There is also a tendency at times to “send light and love” to the situation and “move on”. Put on a “happy face” and “sweep it under the rug, all the while, believing that we’re “highly spiritual” by doing so.
I was reminded of this via an email Joanna Lindenbaum sent out this morning. It’s called “spiritual bypassing”, and while I don’t tend do it these days, it is something that reached expert level in the past. It can really cause us more harm than good.
The Muck and Mud as a Teacher
Does that mean that we ought to stay mired in the muck and mud? No, not in the least. But, no matter how distasteful it may seem, the muck and mud does play a significant role in our lives. Like any other “dark” or “dense” energy we experience in our lives, it has something to teach us. Even if its only purpose is to act as a compass to show us when something is not quite right in our lives. As such, we really need to acknowledge and honor it for the teacher that it is.
Hiding In the Light
It was 2003, and I felt I was at the “most spiritual” point in my life. I ate and breathed “all things spiritual”, meditated A LOT, and studied many different spiritual topics including energy healing. Every moment I was awake, I was – somehow – focused on being “spiritual”.
Looking back on it now, I realize I hadn’t practiced being “spiritual” as much as I had hidden away from my physical reality.
At the time, my husband was stationed in Germany and our family had the pleasure to accompany him. Not long after we arrived, though, he discovered that his unit was deploying to Iraq. In and of itself, that wasn’t the end of the world. We’d survived a deployment to Bosnia a year or two before. This time, though, we were far from our family and close friends.
Spirituality as Solace
I took solace in my spirituality. My practices made me feel good in a way nothing else seemed to. Did that make it a “bad” thing? Not necessarily. But, I used it to escape my outer reality. I didn’t know how to “fix” things to where I felt good about my life, so I went inward where I didn’t have to deal with it. Metaphorically speaking, I built myself a houseboat and took up residence on denial. (It’s not just a river in Egypt. *winks*)
Eventually, I came out to discover what I was running from really hadn’t improved while I was “gone”. In fact, because I had neglected it, it had gotten that much worse. So, I escaped into a fantasy world… But, that’s a tale for another time.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, our spirituality and spiritual practices can be used in less than healthy ways. Our physical reality does not always heal itself because we are “spiritual” as we hope will be the case. Sometimes, it can make it worse as a result.
Getting In the Trenches
What is the most effective way to heal our lives? From what I’ve learned, and from my own experience, it is to get in the trench and “muck” it out.
For those who aren’t savvy to equine terminology… We “muck out” the stalls, when we clean out the **it. It’s the same when we first take responsibility for our life and make it something we desire, rather than loathe.
I believe spirituality does have a place in the process. But it is not a magic wand to wave and voila! It will not clean it up for us. Only when we realize we have created what our life or situation has become, either through action or inaction, we’re free to un-create it too.
We have so much more power than we give ourselves credit for. Once we step into and own it, then we can create miracles. But, we have to recognize that it is ours – it our birthright – first.
What are your thoughts and perceptions on this? I would love your input.